Relationship Issues, The Thirty-Fourth Week of the Second Year in the New Abnormal

I have a relationship problem. My relationship with certain circumstances can be very dicey. When things don’t go as I planned, or something upsets me, I have a hard time accepting it. I get upset, and in getting upset, I judge myself for not being more accepting. Then I mull over how I could have prevented it. I’m self-critical, which in turn, expands my unhappiness.

It happened this weekend after not getting enough sleep, being in unwanted crowded areas, and certain things not going smoothly. I found out tonight we’ve been in retrograde. Maybe that explains it. But while it was going on, my relationship to these events was anything but open. I got annoyed. I tried to think of how I could have avoided the unpleasantness. It was sticky there for awhile in my relationship to the reality I was in.

I forgot how temporary things are. I forgot to pause and reassess. I took a walk. When I came back, I wrote a blog post for this weekend. And then I lost…